A College Student

So, I have a current interest in divination and on my way home from college, I decided to ask Hermes for help in finding tarot cards a friend had bought me back in 11th grade; I'd not seen them in over a year, and I figured it wouldn't hurt to enlist some divine help (going back and forth from college has turned my bedroom into a hazard area.  Trust me, divine help is in order, here!)

Upon my return home, I found the cards within 5 minutes.  I also found $15 lying on my book trunk, which shouldn't have been there - - I'd have found it last time I was home.  Later, I found about $13 in an old purse, which also shouldn't have been there, as I'm sure I wouldn't have left perfectly useful money at  home. 

So, either I left my money lying around, or Hermes is throwing money in my face as a not-so-subtle-hint.  Either way, I'm going to leave Him offerings of coins, probably at a crossroads. 

I love the fact that there are a good number of fellow "academically inclined" Pagans on campus...good number meaning I've found two others (along with several Wiccans and Ecclectics.)  It's exciting to know that, with a little effort, we could probably come up with ideas for the creation of some kind of Pagan community here at Lyco, whether it be official or unofficial.

I feel a definate sense of companionship with the Hellenic Recon and Asatruar on campus that I don't feel with anyone else.  I've only known the Hellenic Recon for a few weeks, and I don't know him particularly well, but I think I'll work on that.

So far as the Asatruar...I miss him, and I can't wait for him to return from Germany next semester!

I've been feeling a pull towards Asatru for a long time now.  

The problem is that I can not, will not even consider ceasing my devotions to Hathor, and I'm really not sure what to do.

Am I the only one who thinks of HetHert whenever I hear the song "Temperature" by Sean Paul?  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yklWIWlfye0

Maybe I'm just nutso.

As I've already stated, I'm not sure who's interested in who - - if I'm just oddly obsessed with Hathor or if She's interested in me at all.

While I'm not egotistical enough to claim the latter, the first option makes no sense. If I were to choose a Goddess, I would choose one who is a bit more militant, and yet, here I am. 

Maybe someone else could explain to me what I, someone who is so very much reserved, could possibly have to do with this Goddess, Hethert, who seems to be my polar opposite.

Hineni, here I am; it’s a phrase we “hear” often when translating from the Old Testament in my Hebrew class. The root of the word, hine means “behold, see this,” or, as my teacher likes to put it, “yo.”

My teacher is a wonderful woman with quirky but memorable insights. In class one day, she gave “hineni” a spin that lead to a sort of epiphany. “Hineni,” she said, “is the perfect response to use of a divine being’s trying to get your attention.”

At first, I just laughed a little bit, but then I really began to think about it.

Over the past couple of years I’ve found myself completely and totally obsessed with the Egyptian Goddess HetHeret, Hathor. Whether this is Her grabbing my attention or I’m completely and totally nuts, I don’t know. All I know is that for the 3 years I’ve known of her I’ve done research papers on Her, made sculptures of Her, written poetry about and dedicated to Her, hell, I even wrote my college entrance paper on Her! …and got in.

Maybe this will sound completely nuts, but I love Her.

So, hinenihetheret; behold, here I am, Hathor.